Ticking off a lot more than I expected. One med appt done, off to go look at shower chairs, plumber coming in on Monday to fix ridiculous leak that makes the kitchen a constant slip zone, next med appt sorted, fixed my mum's app access to medical things, getting the routine and timing down with the eyedrops, sending regular updates to family...

Realising I need to get some work done later this evening and on Sunday though because there's a lot due all at once and I can't work full days over here so better to chip away at things here and there.

Op went well but dang, keeping on top of the eyedrops and meds for the next week and doing a lot of cleaning and bending down etc for my mum is quite a bit of work. Between that and getting on top of work and uni it looks like I'll have a lot on my plate

Bugger. That tenant is a dead set legend though. I guess you are sadly getting the full brunt of what renting is like now. Mad prices for poorly maintained holes, lying abound...

I have landed in the Soup. Say what you will about this place, you gotta give kudos to Changi airport - 15 minutes from deplaning to cab. Was expecting to wait for my bags - nope, merrily halfway down the conveyor belt along with its fellow passengers. And I got to use the completely passportless lane for citizens/residents.. it's almost freakishly fast (like 2 seconds total kind of fast). A good reminder of how biometrics are harder to hack than a passport. They probably have every inch of my face mapped out.

Anyway, can't wait to have a big sumptuous dinner and then crash early. I finished the last 5% of Overstory on the plane and got all riled up about what my life has become. Then I reread Howl's Moving Castle because I had it on my Kindle. Now I feel less cynical.

Got through to bag drop with 10 minutes and 1kg to spare. Just waiting to board now... whew! I'm lucky I managed to take all these other goodies including fresh loaves from Woodfrog.

I hate these cattle class flights to the Soup, so many people who can't follow instructions and mill around in queues trying to board first even though there's a strict sequence

You'd think I'd have plenty of time with a flight departing at 12 noon but somehow I left things til the super last minute. Have checked in online but ETA is 20 minutes prior to bag drop closing... Thoughts and prayers that there's no crashes or bad traffic on the way 😭

Man, this behemoth of a laptop has really chewed into my luggage allowance. Can't take my work laptop, will have to deal with accessing work stuff from SharePoint on my personal laptop instead.

I've been in a mad rush trying to clear out the fridge and tidy things up before tomorrow... Plus side is I made a kickass fried rice with all the leftover rice, enough for brunch tomorrow before the flight and for the freezer as an excellent meal for when I get back.

Once again I cannot be grateful enough for my dishwasher. Takes so much out of the chaos. My mind is in a million places... But I'm almost through my Anxiety List!

It sounds like a leave of absence might be a really good choice. Being so perpetually wired up and tense is no good, it doesn't seem like one of those situations where you'll get used to it and adapt, sounds like the path towards burnout instead...

I struggle a lot with procrastination and work avoidance myself, but after many years I've been able to identify what combination of factors work for me. I can say that the uni setting often doesn't work for me. Forcing myself to get through it has been like pulling teeth. So I strongly support you finding out what works for you as well and being gentle with yourself (while trying to survive the capitalist hellscape)!

Motivation at rock bottom. Just want to delete any work commitments until I get back. Some other family stuff has cropped up that has me worried about a different relative... they might be in danger of spiralling badly and doing something stupid (but not reportable). Which might set off a bunch of other dominos. Nothing much I can do from here at this stage but it weighs on my mind. Would be nice for all that to hold off until late June thanks.

At this point: money

And not letting people down I guess

Feeling extra sad this evening for some reason. Flat sort of day. Very bleah at work. Finished the thing due today though, so that was nice.

Pay came in late, but it's in, so I finished pretty much all my gift shopping - no luck with fancy discounted Easter choccies :( car bills all paid off, flight stuff sorted.

Dinner, then time to pack and weigh my bags. I only leave on Thursday but tomorrow will be hectic so I'm going to just get it all out of the way today and avoid the immense anxiety that often comes with packing <24hrs before leaving

Might also tee up a list of ebooks to download. I'm thinking The Convenience Store Woman, maybe, for a bit of snark.

E: 90% packed except for the last minute stuff. Gee you can hit 20kg pretty quickly but. I somewhat regret buying a hefty 3+kg desktop replacement as a personal laptop all those years ago

Client is getting shirty because the report I had planned to finish last week but couldn't due to my manager's shenanigans is now overdue. Manager is looking really guilty. I have been mostly giving him beatific smiles and continuing work at a steady pace. Poor planning on your part does not constitute an emergency on mine 😇

Halfway through s3 of Animal Kingdom, hearing about the Pope dying is a bit confusing now. I mean I'm sure he's eventually going to die by the end of 7 seasons... Still a solidly B grade series so far, the network TV tropes are meh, but I do love Shawn Hatosy though which is why I'm really watching this show...

Finally! Coolth!!!

You think it's bad starting now, try waiting 3 years between S1 and S2 😭 they say next season should be out next year or so, I hope that's what happens

Severance S2 almost feels like a different show that's for sure.

I feel you about the tension with family. Sometimes I feel sad I only have one subsection of my family I really can connect with. But I'm glad that I have the option of avoiding so much drama as well. Creating better choices now that I have them....

Yeah, it won't be a full day, just enough to make sure the following days aren't a total clusterfuck. Thinking about it makes me a tad anxious now so best to get ahead of it...

I knew it, this rain was a total lie - all I ended up with was a car with dried dusty splotches all over! I'm not confident it'll rain much tomorrow either... it's so dry out there.

It took so much effort but I've done my most important duties today: cleaned manky kitchen and bathroom, vacuumed disgusting gross carpet, washed and dried some seriously dirty sheets and clothes, put new sheets on, and gave my own oily unwashed hair a good clean. 1.5hr chat with depressed cousin (both of us significantly more cheerful after talking), and a decent dinner later, I'm certainly feeling gruntled.

This will sound awful but I think I'm just going to frigging go into the office tomorrow and work (and count it as hours for later in the week), because I'm just not in the mood for a 4 day long weekend when I have a LOT to do before Thursday and will be pretty much unavailable for 7 working days after during which time several deadlines will come up.

I'd rather clear my plate early, and also do it on a day when I will have zero distractions (but good coffee, ergonomics and lighting).

New plan hatched (heh) in terms of buying gifts for people back in the Soup. Because they get nearly everything there (albeit marked up) it can be hard to figure out what to bring back... and I have the perfect idea.

Discounted fancy Easter choccies! I shall head to Leo's on Tuesday or Wednesday after work and see if there's some premium local brands on sale, the kind you won't get overseas. Monsieur Truffe on discount would be nice.

I'm feeling a bit bummed spending all 4 days alone, however I sorta don't mind given the lack of alone time I will have during my 11 day trip and the two days prior.