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  • Can I get some support rn please?

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  • Like I said, 7+ day dry fasts have been done.

    I live in a cold country and am very sedentary. The 60 hours I just did without water was actually great and not in a delirious way. You don’t understand the abuse I’ve put my body through by drinking and eating way way too much, not listening to my body properly.

    I know what I’m doing. For the regular person, I’m sure it would be bad for but I’m not the regular person.

    Actually yes, some life forms do need to not eat and I’m one of them. Like I said,,, I eat waaay too much in general AND this has been done by many others before for therapeutic purposes etc and they’ve been fine. And what I meant by support me was support me in doing this. And by understand I meant truly understand my reasoning for doing so and see the genuine goodness that will come from it.

    To be completely honest, I already feel like I’m dead. Decaying. If I die, it will be the rotten no good parts of me that die. I’m prepared for that to happen. My life sucks as it is. One week In the grand scheme of things is nothing.

  • Can I get some support rn please?

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  • I understand all that but what’s right for one person is wrong for another and vice versa.

    7 days sounds extreme but it’s deeply healing for me

    I don’t quite know why I’m trying to convince you or others…

    There was some reasoning behind what I broke the fast with so I’m not too annoyed with myself about that.

    Again, the basic biological need that I’m ignoring is not eating. I know my body more than you or anyone else. I can easily eat 20,000+ in one week consistently. And I probably do. Not that I’m counting. I’m not expecting many if any people to support me on this or understand.

    And I’m not planning on “never eating again” by any means. That’s completely unrealistic. I just want to reset my nervous system from years upon years of damage. I definitely have BED.

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  • What I meant was by spending all that money and eating when I didn’t need to I was putting my family including myself in jeopardy.

    Maybe one day I’ll get to OMAD too.

  • Can I get some support rn please?

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  • Heavy on the can die. There are probably people who could die at 24 hours depending on the circumstances.

    I am happy that I made it that far. Further than ever before. I have done 72 hours once but with water and black coffee though. But there was shame around how I ended it…(for reasons I won’t fully go into rn). I would like to get to 7 full days and I know I can and will even feel better for it. Someone else may have a completely different response than me if they try that but I know deep in my bones that it will be healing for me regardless of what anyone says. I know it’s been done before by others too.

    I guess it’s a combination of the amount I spent and on what that feels indulgent along with that I wasn’t actually hungry etc. and about it endangering my family, it does sound far fetched or quite extreme of a statement but it feels true and I won’t go into why or how right now.

    Yes. It is about stress and for some like me, eating is a stressor. Alongside talking to a professional which honestly I can’t see myself doing atm.

  • I just did 60+ hours of dry fasting and then today spent £130+ on a bunch of stupid shit like energy drinks and jelly(jello). I haaaate spending money almost as much as I hate eating. I feel so stupid

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  • Ok

  • Galinda and elphaba's names both start with the same letter as gratitude and envy. The opposing virtue and sin. And Elphie is "green with envy".

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  • I can see how it seems that way but it’s more about the way they are and how I relate to that. G is better with people, not hiding away and when I’m in a state of gratitude I find it easier to engage with people. Whereas E has the opposite experience and is cast away from the group and I find when I’m in that position I feel envy… I’m not explaining this very well but it’s a “shower thought” I had

  • Galinda and elphaba's names both start with the same letter as gratitude and envy. The opposing virtue and sin. And Elphie is "green with envy".

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  • Enlighten me?

  • Can I get some support rn please?

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  • OMAD for 8 years is amazing.

    I don’t think it’s at the expense of my own health since I feel better for it and I am drawn to it for a reason. It feels healing. There’s so much food noise for me it’s practically all I think about and I hate that.

    I suppose I feel the need to hide the fact that I did this. It feels too indulgent and it’s too much of a consistent thing for me, bad habit. I’ve never dry fasted that long before though.

    Doing what I’ve just done feels like I’ve just diseased myself and put my family in jeopardy. Sounds dramatic but eating in this state feels wrong. I don’t feel truly grateful as I know I could be. I understand how this could sound damaging but it’s my truth. I feel sick and like I’m not letting my body properly heal everytime I eat or drink something.

  • Can I get some support rn please?

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  • I explain why in the post I made just before this one.

    Thank you. I feel so sad right now. And bad that I feel sad. I want to be a happy positive force. A light worker like people in my family. But I’m just a disappointment and I stink.

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • Great point. But it’s men I crave. It’s not about if no one cares. I thought that was obvious.

  • Cats are the Grimm reaper

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  • About what?

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • I don’t really want a bf or anything that badly atm tbh. I’ll settle for licking and sucking on a piece of ham atp.

    That sounds really bad but it’s sadly true…

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • But I’m waiting til marriage. Sometimes when I eat and I’m in the mood I imagine what I’m eating or drinking is the person I want and I’m doing things to them. Sorry if tmi.

    I think the fact that it looks like human and *apparently * tastes and smells! according to firefighters, like human, makes me want to try that out on it. plus the guy I like is big like a pig… but in a sexy way

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • Oh 🤦‍♀️ lol. Is it enjoyable for you?

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • I’ve got both but masturbating can get a bit too risky when you’ve got a full house and ….

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • Thaaanks…

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • I replied to your wife?

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • But he pivoted away from the actual question.

    I’m not going to actually eat a human. That’s what pigs are for apparently

  • Since pork tastes like human (according to cannibalists), if I ate it (, which I've never done before), do you think it could satisfy my craving for a certain man atm who happens to also be very big?

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  • I can’t have him so I was thinking I could imagine the pork is him… don’t want anyone else

  • depression_now! @lemmy.world
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    I keep texting him

  • Asklemmy @lemmy.ml
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    What songs hurt you to hear? Emotionally break you down with their depth/intensity?

  • Poetry @lemmy.world
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    You're like a song that hurts to hear

  • Showerthoughts @lemmy.world
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    We humiliate ourselves to the people we like so they will never like us back.

  • Controversial - the place to discuss controversial topics @sh.itjust.works
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    I like men people consider to be evil

  • No Stupid Questions @lemmy.world
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    Should I meet the guy I met from online cam modelling a couple yrs ago?

  • Off My Chest @lemmy.world
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    Two men

  • Controversial - the place to discuss controversial topics @sh.itjust.works
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    Cassie and Maddie are one and the same

  • Showerthoughts @lemmy.world
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    There's the army, so there should be the legy

  • Off My Chest @lemmy.world
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    I am the sin bearer (CW:rant/venty post, TW:multiple)