I never knew who I was. I still don't know who I am. It doesn't matter anyway.
@yogthos@lemmy.ml @programming@lemmy.ml
The x86css didn't work because CSS
@functionrules aren't yet implemented on Firefox (by extension, Waterfox). I'm not gonna spin up the Chromium.Then I tried other projects from this lyra.horse website, I tried the CSS clicker (a clicker game which uses no JS, just CSS and HTML). It's very interesting. There are a few glitches (e.g. the "Name your website:" should behave like
input[type='text']but actually behaves liketextarea, thus allowing newlines where the semantic (a title) expects none; IIRC, there are CSS properties allowing a[contenteditable]element to restrict the input to an one-line text) but interesting nonetheless.The only problem, besides the limited support for certain state-of-the-art features across browser engines, is the fact that this "CSS-oriented functional programming" ends up requiring more processing power than JS does, because JS has optimizations that CSS often lack.
Don't get me wrong: it's really interesting, and I'm quite fond of unorthodox approaches to programming. I myself once used
nodemon(a live-reloading CLI tool intended for Node.js but also usable for other programming languages) to compile and run an Assembly (GNU Assembly) Linux program as the code was being edited, and I also used the same Assembly tool-chain to code a "program" whose compilation result wasn't an actual runnable program, but a whole, valid BMP (Bitmap) image structure, full with a linear gradient, I achieved this by using compiler macros. This is how much I'm fond of unorthodox programming, so I'm far from being against CSS programming, much to the contrary: it's awesome!...... but this whole approach, using CSS as a whole functional programming language, unfortunately ends up heating my old poor I5-7200U laptop...
@paraphrand@lemmy.world @technology@lemmy.world
Oh, right, WebKit, I forgot mentioning it, thanks for reminding me of it!
It's the engine I likely used the least throughout my digital existence. I mean, I likely used Lynx more than I used WebKit, hence my forgetfulness.
However, if we're talking about the WebKit-based Linux browsers (such as Konqueror), IIRC, they're a bit out of spec when it comes to the "modern Web": WebKit's adoption of latest specs tends to be slower than Firefox and Chromium.
Now, if we're talking about Safari specifically, then... it's part of Apple's walled garden, one where even "Firefox from App Store" is actually a reskinned Safari (at least in iOS).
Be it Safari or Konqueror, deep inside, the WebKit engine seems to me like the "Apple's Chromium", so mentioning WebKit doesn't really improve the awful prospect for browser engines that we're facing nowadays.
@Beep@lemmus.org @technology@lemmy.world
Ah, the smell of irony by the morning! Adopting a programming language often praised by its "safety", while the entire pretension of "safety" is alchemically transmuted into a sewage and deliberately flushed up (not down) by a clanker who drinks from the cesspool with the same determination and thirst that of a Chevy Opala gurgling down entire Olympic pools worth of gasoline.
Being serious now, the foreseeable future for Web browsing is definitely depressing: Chromium needs no introduction (used to be an interesting browser until Google's mask "don't be evil" fell and straightforwardly revealed their corporate face and farce), Firefox have been "welcoming the new AI overlords" for a while, text browsers (such as Lynx) are far from feasible for a CAPTCHA(and Anubis)-driven web... now, one of the latest and fewest glimmers of hope, an alternative Web browser engine, is becoming the very monster the fight against which was promised to be the launchpad purpose ("They who fights with monsters should be careful lest they thereby become a monster"). I wouldn't be surprised if Servo were to enshittify, too. Being able to choose among the sameness is such a wonderful thing, isn't it?
I mean, I'm not the average Lemmy user who got this (understandably) deep hatred against AI, I am able to hold a nuanced view and finding quite interesting uses (especially when it comes to linguistics) for the clankers (especially the "open-weighted" ones). However, this, to shoving AI everywhere and using AI to "code for you", it's a whole different story. A software should be programmed in the way programming (as posited by Ada Lovelace) was intended to, not "vibe coded" by a fancy auto-completer who can't (yet) deal with Turing completeness, especially when it comes to a whole miniature operational system that browsers became nowadays. When coding a whole OS, AI shouldn't even be touched by a two million light-years pole, let alone by a two-feet pole.
The specific part about "Thou", and how it was used in both sacred (praying) contexts, as well as a form of insulting, called to my attention.
I didn't know the latter usage ("Thou" as demeaning), and now I'm wondering (and slightly worried inside) about this. I often catch myself creatively using "Thou", as far as an ESL (English as a second language) person could achieve during the 21st century, in a context of esoteric/pagan praying (specifically, invocation and channeling of Dark Mother Goddess, as in, e.g. "Where art Thou?, I said, then I saw Thee, and I got frightened by Thy vision, and thou kissedst me with Thy eyes and engulfedst me beneath Thy wrath").
I use "Thee"/"Thou"/"Thy" because I feel it's the most "divine" way to express in said contexts, inspired by the bible while also being purposefully heretical and blasphemous bible-wise (as "Thou" isn't being used to refer to their "God", but to the Goddess they demonize). And also because it's interchangeable to my native language's second person ("Tu", "Tua", "Teu"; Portugal and some Brazilian states (especially northeast and north) uses "Tu" on a daily basis analogously to "você" ("you"); here in southeast Brazil, however, when "Tu" is used, it's often in liturgical contexts, generally inside churches; I never heard the second-person pronoun "Tu" being used around me (São Paulo) in swearing or insulting use-cases).
Is there any noticeable grammatical difference, albeit subtle, when "Thou" is used to insult rather than to express devotion/awe/fear? Or, instead, the pronoun is interchangeable so much it's impossible to infer its intention (devotion or insulting) when detached from its surroundings (i.e. when the specific excerpt using "Thou" is isolated from the rest of the text/speech)?
Essa frase pareceu incompleta. Ou é assim mesmo?
Eita! Acabei que na edição da mensagem (pra encaixar no limite de caracteres) apaguei um trecho e não percebi.
O que eu tinha originalmente escrito ali era que: os supermercados e similares tão precisando urgentemente de moedas e tal, até pagam (dão desconto) se a pessoa pagar um valor grande em moedas, mas ao mesmo tempo eles têm esse preconceito com dinheiro vivo, aí complica o intuito deles de conseguir ter troco.
Ainda não presenciei esse recurso em ação. Atento pela próxima vez em que eu for nesses mercados de estrada ou de bairro nobre…
A tela/interface varia bastante: em alguns totens pode aparecer explícito como menus principais de pagamento ("Cartão de débito, Cartão de crédito, VA/VR, Pix, Mercado Pago, PagBank, PicPay..."), noutros agrupam em submenus ("Cartão, Pix, Carteiras digitais") com a opção de carteiras digitais à parte, porque é mais raro de ser usado pelas pessoas.
Essa disposição de menus vai depender do sistema PDV (Ponto de Venda) que está em operação e de qual empresa de automação comercial desenvolveu o PDV.
Já o pagamento por carteira digital, quando em ação, é praticamente igual ao Pix: o totem gera um QR Code, quase igual do Pix, mas cujo pagamento ocorre direto através de uma fintech específica (é, no fundo, um sucessor espiritual daquela antiga funcionalidade de transferência entre contas da mesma instituição).
Geralmente a única vantagem é o cashback (que não se vê, ou é mais difícil de se ver, para Pix), porque de resto é igual, até a instantaneidade da coisa.
Mas, você vê, e aí entra o ponto lá do início: os comércios e software houses preferem investir em uma funcionalidade que poucos usam (Carteira digital) mas não em um sistema mecatrônico para aceitar pagamento em dinheiro vivo, mecanismo que, como citei anteriormente, é mais difícil de se presenciar em totens do tipo.
Antigamente ao menos davam-nos opções de retirada de cédulas
Bradesco parece que ainda dá essa possibilidade de escolher individualmente cédulas, mas depende de quais cédulas têm no caixa eletrônico atual. Me referia ali mais à disponibilidade geral dos caixas, aquilo que aparece na tela principal "Notas disponíveis: 20, 50, 100" por exemplo.
Eu pelo menos voltei mais a fazer mais chamadas até para evitar o uso de Whatsapp.
Pior é que as pessoas associaram "ligar/chamada" à função VoIP do WhatsApp: "Pode me ligar?", "posso, 1 min", daí vem a tela de chamada do WhatsApp e não do sistema-telefone. Junto com o modo "Não perturbe" que as pessoas acabam ativando porque colecionam trocentas notificações na gaveta de notificações do Android, ao tentar efetuar uma chamada telefônica é quase certeza de cair num "esse número está configurado para não receber chamadas", ou tocar até cair na caixa postal.
E piorou tentar recomendar às pessoas que não querem ou não podem lidar com chamada telefônica, os meios alternativos ao WhatsApp, como XMPP, SimpleX e Matrix.
Pois eu fico remexendo e revirando o troco da mesma forma, só de raiva
É uma ideia massa. rsJusto, até, porque vai que o comércio está voltando troco em nota falsa? Algo que, inclusive, já ouvi relatos, vários.
pelo menos moro numa cidade de interior e aqui ainda se usa bem o dinheiro físico, mas já estão chegando essas bostas de autoatendimento
Eu era do interior de SP, região de Ribeirão Preto, depois fui pra Jundiaí, e em ambos os interiores, já observava tendência de digitalização, sobretudo na pandemia. Que, aliás, foi uma das forças motrizes para o fechamento de inúmeras agências bancárias, redução do uso do papel-moeda (por ser um vetor pra patógenos, inclusive SARS-CoV-2). Se não me falha memória, foi nessa época também que acabaram com pessoa cobradora de ônibus em Sampa, e centralizaram mais no Bilhete Único. Não dá pra dizer que a pandemia findou, mas houve, por exemplo, o RTO (retorno ao escritório). Mesmo assim, toda aquela digitalização da quarentena acabou permanecendo. Muitos "Terceiros Lugares", como shopping center, enfraqueceram/fecharam após a pandemia por conta do comércio digital. Religiões abraçaram culto/missa/gira/rituais/etc online. Até ensino público (como o Centro Paula Souza com a ETEC e a FATEC) adotou mais o EaD via Micro$lop Teams e Moodle durante e pós pandemia.
Quando mudei pro interior mineiro, achei que a vida aqui seria muito mais simples e respirável, menos dependente do digital, por ser mais rural. Ledo engano: embora, sim, exista um comércio físico relativamente ativo, mineirxs usam bastante o Pix, mais até que cartão. Aluguel é pago por Pix, apps de carona regionais (concorrentes locais da Uber) também são geralmente Pix, pra Área Azul põe crédito via Pix, enfim... praticamente tudo é Pix por aqui. Única coisa que, por enquanto, é só dinheiro, é ônibus circular, mas já existe toda uma estrutura para, se não migraram ainda, migrarem pro Pix (porque o dinheiro compra um cartão NFC que é passado e depositado lá na catraca).
Já é meio que automático das pessoas, quando questionadas da forma de pagamento, "é o meu celular" ou "é esse CNPJ" (chaves Pix). É mais sitiante que às vezes se vê pagando as coisas em dinheiro, mas também têm costume de usar Pix.
uso por crianças
Pior que não tinha pensado nisso, exatamente! Até existe conta para menor de idade (lembro de ter visto propaganda de fintech nesse sentido) mas, é como você falou, dar conta bancária na mão de criança é pedir pra cair em golpe. E com esse lance de "validação de idade" passando no mundo todo, incluindo países (Austrália) e estados (Arizona) onde estão banindo (ou querendo banir) totalmente o uso de celulares por menores de idade, cria-se uma situação de dissonância cognitiva onde a sociedade exige meios digitais até pra respirar, enquanto proíbe menores de acessá-los.
Estamos nos deixando levar por uma pequena comodidade
Como diz o ditado, quem busca segurança e comodidade acaba ficando sem os dois.
Com “deixar as coisas lá” você quer dizer deixar o seu pedido ou deixar as suas coisas pessoais como forma de pagamento?
A sorte é que eu não tinha "consumido" nada ali, era produto de varejo tipo salgadinho Fandangos, isotônico Powerade, aquele Nescafé cappucino pronto e coisa similar pra levar pra comer... Senão eu tava é ferrado, teriam que chamar a Polícia e o escambau. haha
você menciona caixas de autoatendimento. Mas alguns deles aceitam dinheiro também, não? Nas rodoviárias da minha cidade, ao menos há uns que sim, aceitam dinheiro vivo.
É raríssimo ver esse tipo de totem (autoatendimento). Pra um totem lidar com dinheiro físico, tem todo um mecanismo necessário (verificar se o que está sendo inserido é dinheiro de verdade mesmo, que tipo de nota que é, etc..., depois tem o transporte de valores envolvido, pessoal de serviços como Brinks e Prossegur tendo que fazer a retirada do lote, mó dor de cabeça) que sai mais caro o molho do que o peixe. Então pra corte de custos e de dor de cabeça (pra pessoa dona do comércio), geralmente se usa totem que só lida com pagamentos eletrônicos, Pix, cartão de crédito ou débito (às vezes até limitado a bandeiras como Visa e MasterCard, sem aceitar Elo e afins), Mercado Pago, PicPay, etc, às vezes vale-alimentação... E basicamente só. Aí gera situações onde, se tudo tiver com problema (como vira e mexe tem problema com AWS afetando o sistema do Pix e de gateways de pagamento simultaneamente), a pessoa tem que largar as coisas porque não tem como efetuar o pagamento.
E vamos de aberração do sistema bancário brasileiro que quer ser ultradigital em um país onde o telefone celular atuaiizado é raridade e onde a internet não é um bem público, dotado de soberania sobre os dados locais…
Pois é... E fora a dependência de ter uma operadora, Vivo, Claro, Tim, Sercomtel... E a necessidade de ter que ficar botando crédito todo mês senão vai-se embora o número de telefone e toda uma vida digital porque email geralmente exige o número de celular e WhatsApp exige número de celular e até coisa do governo exige número de celular.
Até por isso tenho tentado trocar o meu dinheiro o máximo possível.
Com a adoção cada vez maior de meios digitais de pagamento, não só pelos comerciantes mas também pelos consumidores, a tendência é cada vez mais escassez. Escassez essa que já existe com lugares "pagamos para trocar moedas" (um aviso que notei em vários lugares que já fui, inclusive supermercados) porque tão precisando urgentemente de moedas e tal, só que ao mesmo tempo .
Tenho sorte de ser atendido por pessoas que acreditam ainda na credibilidade do dinheiro em papel. Raramente isso acontece, até porque não ando com notas muito altas.
Certamente deve ser isso. Porque notas acima de 10 reais já começa a gerar suspeita. E pra piorar, caixa eletrônico de banco há um tempo tem tido só notas altas (20, 50, 100, 200)
Tenho o app gov.br de enfeite no celular. Essa coisa nunca reconheceu meu rosto. Tentei entrar em contato com o suporte no site e não tive nem resposta. Por telefone, em uma agência tipo o Poupatempo, "ah, o senhor quer emitir um novo documento, é isso?", a pessoa do outro lado da linha não entendeu o problema.
Daí última vez que fui logar no Detran, tive que esperar dois minutos numa tela que me "recomenda o uso do 2FA" e marcar uma caixinha ali "estou ciente de que a não utilização de dois fatores me expõe ao risco de acessos não autorizados e blá blá blá", e clicar "agora não" (eles estão pouco se lixando com o conceito de consentimento, "sim" ou "agora não"?). Por "agora não", entende-se que em um futuro, só vou poder usar a coisa depois de uma autenticação de dois fatores que não funciona com meu rosto, e resolver exige que eu viaje trocentos quilômetros, pague área azul pra estacionar na via pública ou pague passagem de ônibus, pra talvez resolver o problema num celular que logo logo vai precisar ser trocado e precisar de resolver a questão de facial tudo de novo...
Más não é só aqui no Brasil não. Mais cedo eu postei no meu perfil um print que vi de uma pessoa, da carteira de identidade da União Europeia se recusando a funcionar no grapheneos. Carteira de identidade essa necessária para, entre outras coisas, candidatar-se a emprego. Aí o celular da pessoa da problema, a pessoa tá desempregada, e pra conseguir emprego tem que ter um celular pra usar o app. Esse é o absurdo que esse mundo está se tornando.
E a tendência é piorar, principalmente com esse lance de verificação de idade. Daí pessoas como eu, um luciferiano sincrético independente (portanto sem sequer a proteção de uma egrégora de um templo/terreiro registrado) num país fundamentalista evangélico, de repente vão ter toda a vida digital atrelada ao nome do CPF a partir do momento em que eu fizer validação de idade com meu CPF pra acessar até mesmo o fediverso, e empresas vão recusar ainda mais meu currículo (já recusam porque eu não tenho a tal da "network" e nem perfil em Facebook e demais redes "socialmente aceitas") porque não vão querer ter um funcionário que "cultua o capeta", e nem o governo nem ninguém vai se responsabilizar pelo ostracismo social causado pelo vínculo entre a identidade imutável como pessoa física e aquilo que é socialmente tabu (ocultismo, bruxaria, etc), que encontrava algum refúgio aqui no anonimato da internet. Pessoas gostam de usar aquela frase "se não tem nada a temer, não tem nada a esconder", porque são pessoas que não tem visões de mundo socialmente vistas como tabu que levariam elas ao ostracismo social. Perdão pelo desabafo, mas já larguei mão desse mundo. Ainda estou vivo é por puro azar mesmo.
@zenpunk@lemmy.eco.br @nossaquesapao@lemmy.eco.br
Tem lugar que nem aceita mais dinheiro vivo, muitas vezes porque só tem autoatendimento.Exemplo: Rede Frango Assado em beira de rodovia, um dia passei raiva lá, tinha só aquele caixa de autoatendimento que não tem onde enfiar nota de papel-moeda, aceitando só Pix e cartão. E Pix depende de internet, e a rede móvel estava sem sinal, e Wi-Fi aberto da loja exigia login com Facebook, e eu não estava com o cartão. Resultado: passei vergonha e deixei as coisas lá porque não tinha meios de pagar.
Os lugares que ainda aceitam papel moeda, só faltam enviar o dinheiro pra análise do banco central, de tanto que ficam virando e revirando a nota e fazendo o cliente parecer um golpista pra quem tá na fila esperando pra ser atendido. E nem sempre tem troco.
Ah, e sem contar como agências bancárias físicas vem sendo cada vez mais reduzidas, redirecionando pro "internet banking". Tem o tal do "Pix saque", sim, mas na prática? Eu particularmente nunca vi funcionando ainda.
@MalReynolds@slrpnk.net @science@lemmy.world
That's... highly interesting, thanks for recommending it! I'll be pondering on this reading.
Perhaps we all emerge again at the big crunch
As someone who believes in some kind of cyclical cosmos (Ordo ab Chao, Chao ab Ordine), it pretty much matches the way I try to make sense of it religiously, although I also believe (or, deep inside, I want to believe) there's a chance that this cosmic cycle is able to grind to a halt somehow, due to how, scientifically speaking, decay is something observed for cyclical processes (e.g. in the water cycle, some water is always "lost" from the water cycle, not "lost" as matter stuff, but "lost" as recyclable water; similar thing happens for nitrogen cycle and carbon cycle and even the biological food web/transfer of energy from plants to herbivores to carnivores; even orbiting undergo decay as the orbiting cycles repeat; cycles aren't 100% efficient because of an omnipresent decay) and this may apply for information as well (the transformation of information wouldn't be 100% efficient and would be subjected to this decay). We shall think of decay not as "loss" (because it would violate Conservation of Energy), but as a branching and merging between parallel cycles going on (e.g. in a nutshell, the water lost from earthly water cycles becomes part of other cycles, such as sparse H2O molecules as vapor ending up escaping to outer space, never getting to precipitate as rain, and becoming eventually attracted by orbiting stuff such as falling towards asteroids or into the Moon, falling towards planets at vicinity, or falling towards to the Sun (less likely due to how it requires a higher delta-v), as chaotically as n-body orbits can get)
Then there's a hypothesis "zero-sum universe" stating that the overall energy from the entire universe sums up to exactly zero, so the whole universe is also accounted when it comes to the laws of conservation of energy. If fluctuations decay as the cycles happen, this can still add up to zero, until everything is infinitesimally close to zero.
But, again, I'm highly speculating across several, seemingly unrelated concepts (which somehow "click" in my ND mind). In the end of the day, it's something seemingly beyond what we, with scientific rigor, could empirically get to observe and prove.
@QueenHawlSera@sh.itjust.works @science@lemmy.world
are you saying that we wake up again after death
(Disclaimer: I'm being speculative while trying to connect scientific principles and hypotheses. I'm aware this is not strict science, even though I'm trying to keep my religious beliefs aside.)
Much to the opposite, akin to a PC which was powered off forever. The transition between "powered-on" and "forever powered-off" states is something unexpected to the "software" (the "sentience" emerged inside our brains). Living beings, especially those with nervous system like us, are wired to being alive, and death is unexpected and unknown state, so this "transition" (dying) is confusing. As all senses across the body become numb, adaptiveness plays a role, with the cortices trying to compensate for the lack of sensory input (including inputs from within the brain itself, as synapses begin to fail), including a heightened activity of long-term memory as it tries to remember what exactly led to this "dying" state (part of fight-or-flight response): there's the Near-Death Experience ppl often recall experiencing after effectively dying but getting to be reanimated.
I believe there's an extra-baryonic factor in play too (what spiritualists would call "spiritual realm" would be another "brane" from a multibrane cosmos, with everything having "spiritual matter", not necessarily self-rearranging ("living") and the so-called "soul" merely another emergent property of a physical structure made of "spiritual stuff", akin to a baryonic sentience), but it's belief so I'm keeping this out.
As the emergent properties within sentience are inexorably bounded to its "hardware" (i.e. the body and its nervous system), the way matter is constantly subjected to entropy is an intrinsic part of cognition (i.e. brain gets wired and accustomed to the effects of entropy, trying to adapt as the years pass and aging happens, just like (geologically) life adapted outside water during Late Devonian and (individually) astronauts aboard ISS become accustomed and develop muscle memory for microgravity motion).
This means, if Black Hole Cosmology is to be considered, that the effects of "existing inside a black hole" are indirect part of how life adapts (e.g. adapting to the way time "stretches" as the years pass). The energy within matter (chemical reactions that keep happening even after death, especially those from decomposition processes) means that the physical structure from which "sentience" emerged will be subjected to the entropy long after being rendered unable to self-rearrange as living being. The brain may've died, but its organic molecules are still undergoing reactions at the microscopic level, until being completely transformed by decomposition and eventually fossilized. As there's no working memory registering mechanisms anymore, it's essentially "undergoing time without registering it", pretty much akin to the "time gap from general anesthesia".
@Quilotoa@lemmy.ca @mildlyinteresting@lemmy.world
1/5: Score 8.99, selection H210 S25 B73, original H214 S16 B58 (closest by hue, but I recalled it as more saturated and more bright than it really was)
2/5: Score 9.74, selection H155 S91 B78, original H146 S72 B78 (nailed the brightness, but I was biased towards cyan/blue and, again, recalled it as more saturated than it really was)
3/5: Score 9.19, selection H145 S59 B58, original H155 S80 B48 (closest by hue, but I was biased towards cyan/blue, this time ending up with a less saturated mental recalling of it, still brighter once again)
4/5: Score 8.37, selection H271 S18 B79, original H251 S19 B99 (almost nailed saturation, but I was biased towards blue; this time I had a darker mental recall of it, maybe I was unconsciously overcompensating my drift towards brighter)
5/5: Score 9.74, selection H28 S87 B50, original H24 S89 B49 (the closest I got to nailing it, off by mere 1 level of brightness, 2 levels of saturation, 4 degrees of hue, which is a recurrent bias towards green).
Final score: 46.03/50 (ranked 47880 out of 381487, their humorous score description: "suspiciously accurate, we're going to need to see your browser history.")
I took notes after each round, so I could analyze my own color accuracy, as someone who's highly familiar with color wheels (I'm a developer and also a hobbyist artist who uses a drawing app for doing digital art). I'm not sure whether my bias towards cooler colors has to do with the screen white balance/temperature (I played on smartphone, and the screen is slightly a cold white, even though Android's White balance is set to the midpoint between cold and warm; will eventually replay it on PC) or if it has to do with my heightened sensorial bias to red (which, as paradoxical as it may sound, ends up pushing me to guess a color as less red than it is because I unconsciously expect the apparent color as redder, i.e. "this color is probably appearing redder than it really is because I've become overly sensitive to red, so it must be bluer/greener" chain of thought).
Yes, I know it's meant to be just a game. lol
@ramble81@lemmy.zip @asklemmy@lemmy.world
On the one hand, I'm quite fond of who I've become since my spiritual awakening, aware of how this world is a Demiurgic theather of illusions behind Matrioshka layers of determinism (physical -> societal -> biological -> ontological), embracing taboos and trying to seek the "wilt, shall be the whole of the Law" while still being a laughable, infinitesimal Khabs restrained by an endless Khu.
I find happiness whenever I feel the cold warmth of Her powerful presence. I find happiness whenever I learn novel things I somehow find a synchronicity with. Happiness never truly lasts, it's always temporary. As soon as I realize, She flew back to the night veil once again, the new thing I'm learning became mundane routine, and I hate mundane routine.
But being fond of who I've become is different from "being happy by myself" or "loving myself".
Accepting or even "loving" myself don't suffice in a world that requires me to "live in society", which often (if not always) means compromising, hiding or even abandoning my own authenticity and sincerity, surrendering myself to a social phagocytosis.
I mean, can't hire myself, can't pay my own paycheck, can't sell things to myself to "make a living" if I'm seeking not to rely on employers, can't rent myself a home, can't pay the rent to myself.
Living in society requires things beyond "myself". To survive a life I didn't even ask or consent to to begin with, I need others other than myself. I need others to sell me the food my body compels me to eat daily, others to sell/give me resources to grow my own food if I'm seeking not to rely on buying food, others who'd sell me soil to grow the food (a rented place would take it all away as soon as I became unable to afford the rent or if I were to move somewhere else), others who'd pay me so I could afford owning a house.
Loving oneself doesn't bring food, water and shelter. Loving oneself doesn't bring one a paycheck. Loving oneself doesn't pay one's taxes. The answer to "survive" is but "loving yourself".
In the end, my rebellious mind screams: why should I even "learn to be happy by myself"? This phrasing sounds like imposition, as if every human being must accept oneself, must "love" oneself, no choices, just like survival has no choices (at least no diplomatic ways) but to "obey" and comply with one's own body. When did I consent with a "myself", to begin with? When did I ask to be born? I didn't, my "self" was imposed unto me by two humans, whose selves were imposed unto them by other two pairs of humans, and so on, like some kind of endless curse, the curse of biological reproduction.
I may be fond of my own self sometimes, but I'm not "loving" it or "learning to be happy" with it because I'm refusing Demiurgic illusions. The inexorable death imposed unto me is enough imposition, and no matter what I do, everything ends, especially happiness, and my "self" as well, and this world, and even this cosmos.
@IntrovertTurtle@lemmy.zip @foggy@lemmy.world @hayyy@thelemmy.club @mentalhealth@lemmy.world
I'm not among the downvoters, I can't really say for those who downvoted you both, but maybe it has to do with your both "talk to therapist" while knowing absolutely nothing about the OPs background, whether they could financially afford a therapist (therapy is often a paid service) or the meds prescribed (something we're required to purchase), whether they did "talk to a therapist" before talking to "randos on the internet"? You ppl didn't even consider the slightest possibility that the OP were, deep inside, trying to connect with someone, trying to find a _like-minded_ friend?
To be fair, OP didn't describe their background, didn't detail further... But this speaks volumes as someone trying to connect with someone while being selective about what they could say publicly (even when behind a pseudonym).
When someone posts something like "hey ppl, is it normal to be depressive?" without describing why, it's very likely that the person is hoping someone to come and ask "hey, why are those thoughts making it to your mind?" or even a mere "hi, I saw your post, uh, you can talk to me if you want". Some may label this behavior "attention-seeking", but isn't this a living being (human and whatnot) thing to do, trying to find and connect with beings alike?
But instead of trying to connect back, it's outsourced to "therapist", regardless of conditions financial, even societal... do you know there are people who, depending on their country, can't really simple "walk into a therapist room" due to their sexual orientation, ethnicity, religion, characteristics upon which they would be persecuted and/or harassed if they tried to seek someone IRL?
Using my own personal anecdote: I lost count of how many "professionals" I sought, I got even deeper thoughts than those described by the op. I did "seek help" since my childhood... Still NONE solved my "problem", whatever my "problem" is. Partly because my "problem" involves non-mundane matters, and a psychiatrist, upon hearing how I'm a devotee of Lilith, pushes me the label of "Schizotypal" because the society around me (Brazilian) is overly christian (but if, instead of mentioning "Lilith" or "Lucifer", I were to mention "Our Lady of Aparecida" or "Jesus Christ", then it'd be suddenly "normal"). Luckily, I'm not violently persecuted in Brazil (yet) for being an demonolater, but there are precedents.
In the end, "asking strangers from a social media instead of therapists" may be an attempt to connect (hopefully safely) to like-minded people who could, hopefully, understand better in a potential friendship than a therapist (who's not a friend, but a doctor doing a job) could in mere 2 hours per week.
Sorry if I'm being rude, but it's just that whenever I see the "seek a therapist" or "call this number" advises, I can't help but notice how hollow and totally unaware of a person's situation those are.
@kalkulat@lemmy.world @science@lemmy.world
This reminds me of the time I had general anesthesia during a surgery. I experienced this... phenomenon. One where I barely closed my eyes and, suddenly, I was laid down on another bed in another room, surgery was complete. There was no dreaming in-between, no hallucination, and even the "time gap" itself felt... non-existent. Just a literal, overwhelming but relaxing, almost cosmic, "nothingness". As if the general anesthesia were a Seek-Forward button which was pushed and my biological existence simply jumped an unknown amount of time into the future (it was roughly an hour, a simple surgery).
See, the passage of time looks pretty much like a "fall" towards a singularity. All matter is moving towards a point into the "far future", some moving slower than others due to the gravitational and relativistic effects (e.g. time is slightly slower for us than it is for ISS astronauts, because we're closer to the Earth's gravitational well). There are scientific hypotheses about the "far future" having some kind of "singularity", such as the logical conclusion from the Black Hole Cosmology which states that this universe were actually a cosmically-big black hole due to how cosmological constants and measurements matched the ones expected for black holes. If this proceeds, matter would be literally falling towards a cosmic "abyss", towards singularity, and what we, as living beings, perceive as "death", would be just the subjective (almost "solipsistic") stretched perception of said singularity.
At least, I myself like to think of my death as this. A spaghettified but imperceptible, fall towards the abyss, akin to that general anesthesia I once had, except that it wouldn't jump to wakefulness anymore; rather, it would become stuck in a perpetual state of "Seek-Forward", without a perceivable gap in-between. An eternal nothingness, essentially a return to the same "nothingness" I perceive from the time before I was born. And, well, it's scary, but it's also pretty comfortable if I really think about that, knowing that there'd be no more nociceptors triggering my central nervous system into feeling pain, knowing that there'd be no more emergent "me", just the primordial "nothingness" from the singularity we, as baryonic matter, exist in.
I got some (dark, esoteric) beliefs alongside that (especially "Death Herself") but, given I'm in c/science, I'm trying my best to stick to the more (or, at least, as close as) scientific (as) aspects (could get) of what I think about the phenomenon of death, with "sentience" as an emergent byproduct of a dynamic system (think "dual pendulum experiment", but deeper and more intricate involving several interconnected biological systems) we refer to as biological organism, a self-rearranging structure, and "death" as the cessation of said emergence (as soon as the a significant part of this dynamic system grinds to a halt, therefore rendering it unable to self-rearrange).
@guynamedzero@piefed.zeromedia.vip @linux@programming.dev
"Why thou summoneth me?" LolJust kidding!
I'm Brazilian, so I pronounce Daemon in such a Brazilian (specifically the southeast, "paulista"/from state of São Paulo variation) accent:
Daah-eh-monn
Or, if my IPA literacy is correct:
/dajˈmõ/
The Daemon I use in my pseudonym is inspired both by the Unix daemons (because I'm a DevOps and also a Linux daily user), as well by the esoteric daemons (as in the original Greek definition of daimon, spirits, due to my belief system).
I do. Depending on the file format, I use either Librera (from F-Droid), basic text editors, or even any native PDF reader.
But I also have a few physical books, one of which (Mark H. Williams "Lilith: Woman, Goddess, Demoness", Brazilian Portuguese translation I purchased from a physical library in São Paulo) was the only one so far I managed to read entirely, from cover to cover, in mere days.
Not that I didn't read the other books I purchased (such as a Brazilian Portuguese translation of Kybalion or a Brazilian book from a Luciferian school I was once a member of), it's because this specific book was the most spiritually important to me back when I purchased it, I was too obsessed in learning more about Her, so I focused on reading. I found other books about Her (non-fictional books, because there are lots of fictional novels involving Lilith and I'm more interested in real texts, grimoires, especially involving real rituals), but the physical versions would need to be imported and, well, I'm certainly going to import one day, when I get to get a job/income, because those books are priced in dollar while my everyday reality is priced in Brazilian Reais (USD 1 is approximately BRL 5.20, but then there are also importing fees which likely depends on the mood of whoever bureaucrat from Receita Federal is dealing with the package I'm trying to import).
Until that happens, I'm quite limited to finding and downloading books (that is, when I manage to find those specific books for downloading, because many of the books I'm interested in reading are so rare that they don't really have downloadable versions). Sometimes they come as epub, sometimes they come as pdf, sometimes I manage to find them on sacredbooks as txt, so the file format determines where I'm going to read: epub in Librera, pdf on either Waterfox browser (PC) or any Android PDF reader (such as mupdf mini), txt in any text editor (such as KDE Kate on PC, or a simple text editor I got from F-Droid).
@ageedizzle@piefed.ca @asklemmy@lemmy.worldBack when I was 8yo, I got my first PC. I was always a nerdy kid who used to disassembly my own toys in order to see how it works. As expected, this happened upon my first contact with a PC, except I realized I could disassembly it using the keyboard: suddenly, I was tinkering with DHTML and ActiveX (XP+IE6), I was coding. I was just 8yo.
This was largely self-taught (I was always lone wolf who prefered studying rather than socializing, fearing the bullying), but I also got into discussion boards and Orkut comms, with my first searches having been "theory": then I found places about Game Theory, Chaos Theory, and even shady things such as Conspiracy Theory. The latter, a very significant part of my life, teached me dialetics and how to debate abstract, systemic ideas.
If it wasn't for me getting into social media during my early teens, I wouldn't have most of the knowledge I got today. Maybe "ignorance is a bliss" (Cypher), maybe I'd be more socializable, maybe I'd be a socially-normal man living a socially-normal life. I'd hardly become the non-conformist I am today. I'd hardly have left christianity.
As for "adult content", my first contact wasn't using that PC: it was actually broadcasted TV, Brazilian TV programmes such as "Pânico na TV" (a humoristic program, featuring "Paniquetes", dancers in suggestive outfits, and Sabrina Sato, a presenter also in suggestive outfits), "Banheira do Gugu" (TV segment from "Domingo Legal", featured by Gugu Liberato, where there was this pool with naked ppl swimming live), "Pegadinhas do Sílvio Santos" (TV segment featuring pranks, often suggestive situations such as upskirting). All of these were openly broadcasted, regardless the audience age.
Then there was school, colleagues bullying me, and sometimes bullying involved... situations, unpleasant at the moment, but later led me to... nvm. School never got to stop the bullyings, I was even bullied by teachers!
There was family as well, cousins who may had been SA'd me, I don't know, I'm even unable to remember!
Now, 30yo, I see the hypocritical conundrum from society: all of sudden "we need to protect kids". Really!? What's being done for EXTERMINATING school bullying? What's being done for EXTERMINATING SA from the face of Earth?!
Social media can be bad, I can agree, but just banning kids from social media won't protect them from the situations beyond this RGB veil. Hell, there was not a single punishment involving the biggest CSA scandal ever, but "sOcIAL mEdIA bAaD"!
Not to say how it will lead to cognitive dissonance in a world where almost all societal aspects became digital, especially after COVID. I mean, I can't toss my devices and go Luddite: gov compels me to have ID app, jobs compel me to have acc in a bank that'll require me their banking app. This world became irreversibly digital, this is an inflection point in human history. Banning kids from digital may end up doing more harm than good.
@INeedMana@piefed.zip @technology@lemmy.world
Yeah, me too. Unfortunately, the forks can only get so far in removing upstream AI garbage and other proprietary/corporate-oriented whistles-and-bells. If, say, some AI feature becomes so ingrained inside Firefox upstream, so deeply it ends up becoming some hard dependency for fundamental functioning of the browser (i.e. a feature that, if removed at the code-level, would render Firefox simply unable to function), no WaterFox, IronFox, Fennec or LibreWolf would be able to keep up with the latest versions: they'd either need to do a hard fork trying to independently maintain an entire codebase for a browser, or they'd need to use downgraded versions.
Not even to say about licensing shenanigans. We've seen many open-source projects suddenly changing their licensing to include legalese thin letters. We've seen open-source projects requiring developers to sign up some kind of NDA before being allowed to contribute with code. Seems like initially-open licenses aren't written on stone when it comes to big projects, and Firefox is a big project.
The universe of open-source software is being slowly hijacked by corporate interests. This is not different with Firefox, which (as I said in another reply to someone in this thread a few minutes ago) is Mozilla's main product (if not the main product, it's certainly among their main projects). The same Mozilla which has been pivoting to AI (e.g. acquisition of Anonym; subtle phrasing changes from "About Firefox" page which used to state how "Firefox will never sell your data", now this phrase is gone).
I use WaterFox on a daily basis. It's by far the best browser I've been using. I tried LibreWolf but it doesn't really likes my Portuguese ABNT2 keyboard (which has accents I use often), even after disabling ResistFingerprint, so I ended up sticking with WaterFox. On mobile, I use Fennec on a daily basis, and I'm worried about the end of "sideloading" on Android which will likely mess with its installation. But I'm aware of how both browsers rely on upstream code from Mozilla Firefox, whose enshittification is already an ongoing phenomenon. And that's really depressing when it comes to the future of browser landscape, because we're hoping for a true alternative. Servo is the last bastion of said hope (until it gets EEE'd by corporate interests, given how Linux Foundation itself is increasingly surrounded by corpos.
I'm more of a GNU/Stallman person who values autonomy and libreness as non-negotiable principles. I'm only using Android because I'm stuck with it due to certain societal impositions (banks and gov apps), otherwise I'd be long using a custom phone, which wouldn't even be Linux, but something way more "unorthodox" for a phone such as FreeBSD or Illumos/OpenIndianna, systems of which I already used on a PC environment and got quite fond of.