But sometimes I think one nuclear detonation for every single square kilometer of the United States would not be enough.
It's depressing, no one was born a fascist, no one was born as an enemy of humanity, every American is just as human as me. The U.S. might be the biggest ongoing tragedy in the history of the world, a society that can corrupt almost anyone born into it to be the lowest that humanity has to offer. A system so intricate and efficient at corrupting minds and inoculating them against human decency one can hardly accept that it wasn't explicitly designed for that purpose. It became that way through pure mutation and material conditions, it's a cancer upon the world that happened to grow in the spot where it couldn't be stopped.
And now that system is on track to live beyond 250 years. What will finally kill the United States? No army can reach it, so something from within must kill it. Domestic tensions are mounting at the moment but every time that happened in the past Democrats step in as a pressure release valve and keep the project going for another 20 years.
Some things you learn while in socialist circles truly feel like a burden on the psyche.
The fact that something like Operation Gladio has been so thoroughly obscured from public knowledge makes anyone who attempts to bring it up in conversation look exactly like the stereotype of a "delusional communist".
"Yes, of course, you commies can only blame big bad U.S. for the failure of your trash ideology, listen to yourself, how can you say that NATO armed secret armies to crush communism in every country west of your beloved Iron Curtain while even giving them backpack nuclear weapons, that sounds like the fantasy of a conspiracy theorist."
I wonder what would it take for Gladio to become public knowledge, I believe it's knowledge of such incendiary potency it could probably be brought to light by European governments in the event of a total collapse of NATO and U.S.-Europe relations.
Thank you everyone for sharing your perspectives. Yes, I was already aware of the U.S. holding the world at regular gunpoint, my reason for writing this post was mostly because of my own anxieties of a looming nuclear catastrophe. I've had many nightmares ending with a mushroom cloud on the horizon. It was also a long winded way to express my morbid curiosity about how far the U.S. will be willing to go in the future.
Thank you all for grounding my perspective, I conclude that a nuclear gun just isn't as effective as a regular one. I also conclude that even if the leadership of the U.S. is evil incarnate and their country is a modern bandit kingdom they still wouldn't dare push the button when Russian and Chinese nukes exist.
I suppose it was my naivety to think otherwise. But despite me accidentally describing modern American global dominance, nuclear bombs were not dropped on a civilian population post-1945, the Cold War forced the U.S. administration to mask themselves as heroes because the U.S.S.R. had the ability to shoot back with nuclear payloads.
I really have this morbid curiosity about how far the U.S. will take things in the age where there is no peer opponent willing to oppose them.
Looking more into it, it seems straw.page is actually quite useful for many things, it has functionality for different pages and can serve as a link aggregator. It's possible to set up one personal site to suit all your needs in one place, how neat.
I saw another artist set up a straw.page and it looked fun, I think I will also set up my own custom straw.page complete with the anonymous drawings and messages.
It can definitely be a big avenue for one-sided harrassment, but at the end of the day I got to get thicker skin and "take it aisy", as Engels once said. I believe the beauty of getting random kind messages, suggestions for things to draw and sketches from people who follow you outweights the downside of some people maybe coming in to throw a rotten tomato at you.
Factorio: I briefly tried it in the totally completely legal way before I switched to Linux, it was great! But, post-Linux I lost interest in acquiring it in the totally completely legal way again.
Risk of Rain 2: It's always fun, the new DLC that released this year was a hit. To me the game feels complete without mods at this point.
Hearts of Iron 4: I was gifted the new DLC that added content for the People's Republic of China, perfecting the strategy for early ahistorical expansion and victory on ironman was quite engaging.
Minecraft (Modded): This year I got the idea for making my own mod pack that turned it into a factory building game with a persistent enemy threat similar to Factorio. In December I finally got through my attention deficit to write my first functional lines of code, I feel quite proud of myself.
Signalis: pain and suffering
Atomic Heart: I was gifted the game on my birthday and it was beautiful, the retro-futuristic Soviet environment really comes alive with all the little details the artists put into the game, it will definitely be a big source of art inspiration for the future.
I overall scaled back my consumption of video games at the end of 2025, the goal is to eventually replace video games with consistent daily drawing and illustration practice.
Whenever I want to dull my brain I go to r/romania. Like going to a zoo but the subjects are bots and people with some of the worst, most misinformed and contradictory perspectives imaginable fighting each other while speaking exclusively in a tortured hybrid of Romanian and English.
What keeps me coming back is that rarely I get to see one comment that has a lucid, material understanding of the world among the sea of verbal refuse. I admit it's not a healthy habit.
The death of another will never warm my soul.
But sometimes I think one nuclear detonation for every single square kilometer of the United States would not be enough.
It's depressing, no one was born a fascist, no one was born as an enemy of humanity, every American is just as human as me. The U.S. might be the biggest ongoing tragedy in the history of the world, a society that can corrupt almost anyone born into it to be the lowest that humanity has to offer. A system so intricate and efficient at corrupting minds and inoculating them against human decency one can hardly accept that it wasn't explicitly designed for that purpose. It became that way through pure mutation and material conditions, it's a cancer upon the world that happened to grow in the spot where it couldn't be stopped.
And now that system is on track to live beyond 250 years. What will finally kill the United States? No army can reach it, so something from within must kill it. Domestic tensions are mounting at the moment but every time that happened in the past Democrats step in as a pressure release valve and keep the project going for another 20 years.