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Squished Fly (she/they)
Squished Fly (she/they) @ SquishedFly @lemmy.blahaj.zone

Hey you. Yes, you reading this. You are cute!

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  • proceeds to ghost every attempt at hookups

  • How about the next best rave in Germany or Austria~? If you can stand the music I like then who knows what else I'm down to do :3

  • God I sometimes hate it that my gf is aroace, I want this sooooo badly

    I mean it is an open relationship but none else wants to make out with me ;w;

  • My hips to waist ratio actually got worse on HRT because of weight gain...

  • I'm craving a sugar mommy TwT

  • Date idea: we board the ICE to Köln Hbf and play with our Nintendo 3DS together for the entire ride 👉👈đŸ„ș

  • now paint the rest of the body too for full femininity

  • Flirting

  • and she's in bed next to me braless and smoking

    Why does something so fukken hot as smoking have to be so incredibly unhealthy (àČ„ïčàČ„)

  • I... Having someone lay down on your tiddies hurts even if you don't have much (AA cup talking from experience here)...

  • confession

  • Ah shit I should really learn how to spell (or disable autocorrect)...

    Yeah I meant Aromantic

  • confession

  • I must confess, I'm.... Well I'm in some sort of Ace and kinda Aro relationship so I still yearn for someone to kiss me (lucky me that it's an open relationship but I'm not gonna find anyone who wants to kiss me)

    !my gf does sometimes play with my tits tho and it's the fucking best feeling ever!<

    Edit: spelling

  • Well I tried but I wasn't good at it at all... I wish there where more dom trams girls ;-;

  • I am cute and quirky precisely because I am medicated (tho it should stop in at most an hour for today... I'm scared, I've cried enough this week already)

  • Hmm you definitely do have a point, thank you for explaining c:

  • God I love this community so much. Exactly as I said in my earlier comment: "The moderation here is out of love for the community." And I'm so happy that that is the case.

    Seriously, thank you for being a great moderator ;w;

  • Particularly in smaller communities like this entire Lemmy instance, it is much harder for toxicity to develop. Pretty much everyone knows that this community is about posting "lmao i'm lonely and/or horny" memes and it's easy for new people understand that too (like it was for me).

    Why does reddit have so much toxicity though? The issue is that most mods only really care about a community just being in an acceptable state. What they don't do is actually make the community into a place where you want to spend more time on. They're doing the bare minimum to moderate as many communities as possible so that they can get notoriety and moderate bigger subreddits because bigger subs (or reddit themselves) can pay those moderators.

    Reddit even actively encourages this behaviour, not only by paying those mods but also with some decisions on how subreddit management works (not going into details because you could find my reddit username with that).

    The moderation here is out of love for the community. I know very well that the even worst communities can be made into a cozy space with good moderation but if there's no love for the community then there's no reason for it (which creates a downwards spiral because the more toxicity, the less love for a sub, and the less love, the less proper moderation).

    For context: I was a moderator for a pretty big subreddit and am the only reason why the sub still exists to this day (even if it turned to shit again after my departure)

    All of that being said tho:

    This image is just a taste of what's out there that can be toxic

    Please tell me why this is toxic, I don't think I understand ;-;

  • ....my tits don't honk when I squeeze them tho ;-;

  • 470 hours of playtime and still missing achievements?

  • Trans Memes @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    blood blood blood blood

    Normally, a person looses around 40ml of blood per period with people having 450 periods on average in their life. This means that on average a person would loose 18l of blood from menstruation alone. With the average human having between 4.5l and 5.7l, you'd only need to sacrifice 4 people to the menstruation gods to never have to shed blood for that ever again. In my experience, it works best when sacrificing transphobes or terfs.

    As a quick side note: I hate it when someone refers to it as a "pseudo-period". The hormonal cycle is very very real, I can assure you that.

  • Do you wanna kidnap meeeee? 👉👈đŸ„ș

  • Trans Memes @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    They just won't heal properly....

    It's been almost 10 years. I've given up on the hope of them being less jarring to look at so covering is the only thing I can do...

    Femcel Memes @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Please someone just give me attention....

    The worst part is: I feel like I want this soo badly but I don't know if I really want it. The imagination of having someone is the sweetest thing in existence but in all reality, I don't think that I could handle having someone that close to me.... I don't understand my sexuality, but that's fine. I'll just post memes to cope with it and cry into my Blahaj when I need to

    src for the background image: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/119419109

    Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Estrogen in relation to hunger/appetite

    So I've started estrogen around 3 weeks ago (hooray ミ)/ ) but have noticed one thing that is really bothering me.

    I feel like I could eat the entire day through. I'm just constantly hungry and it really irks me... Before, I had absolutely no issues going with one, maybe two small meals a day (when not at work) and sometimes even completely skipping a day. But now I pretty much need a chewing gum to sedate me from eating all the food that I made for myself for today and tomorrow.

    It's really tearing on me... Yes, I am slightly underweight (56kg/173cm) but the fact that I am a little slim is like 30% of what makes me pass even just on 3 weeks of HRT...

    I don't want to gain weight, I don't want to lose this figure of mine, I don't want to waste so much time and money just eating....

    I know that this is probably partially an undiagnosed eating disorder speaking but does any one of you have a similar experience?

    The fat i'd accumulate wouldn't go to my ass or boobs.... I have no c

    Trans @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    How long did it take you getting used to a new name/pronouns

    For context: This Monday I came out to my work colleges and asked them also to call me by my new name and pronouns. Everyone is very supportive which is all that I could hope for. The only issue is, since in my family noone calls me by my actual name, not many people in my life actually call me by my chosen name (at least up until now).

    With everyone at work calling me by my chosen name now, it actually feels quite a bit strange, uncomfortable and even a little embarrassing.

    I did talk to my therapist about something like that once and he said that, yes, I am stepping out of my comfort zone and yes, that is uncomfortable but it's a necessary step to get better.

    And yet, my brain still slaps me with that sweet sweet imposter syndrome like "how can you be trans if what you want is making you uncomfortable" and so on.

    And now I'm here, asking you for similar experiences you've had to hopefully get it through my fat skull that it's a normal thing to feel (hopefully).

    So. How long did

    Trans @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    TW: Bad politics - election where i'm from gone terrible

    I'm so scared...

    I'm from a small central European country called Austria. We recently had elections for our EU representative. Sadly, the HEAVILY conservative party (formerly the same party that Hitler was in) won.

    Literally all that they want to do is just objectively wrong - from ignoring climate change to leaving the EU, and that's not even mentioning their views on us queer folk.

    Seeing as how this election turned out, I'm so incredibly scared of the next one (nationalratswahl) because, if they get elected there too, they can cause some serious damage to Austria/us. I'm actually so scared that I feel the need to kinda rush my transition now (mainly meaning legal name/gender change).

    I actually genuinely feel ashamed living here sometimes. And yes, I am thinking of leaving the country if it gets worse but it's really not that easy for me currently...

    I'm sorry for the rant but I'm just incredibly scared about my safety here in the future. I also don't have any other place to

    Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I need some tucking help

    As a transfem, it's probably not a surprise that I get disphoric about a certain area. Tucking normally doesn't really work for me because it leaves tape residue everywhere, hurts like hell to remove the tape and is super inconvenient (even though it's medical tape). My idea: there has to be at least some underwear that is specifically designed for tucking.

    After googling for a good while, I found a couple of sites offering tucking underwear. The only issue is: the price is extremely high. Does anyone of you have experience with tucking underwear? What are your thoughts and can you recommend them? I don't wanna blow a ton of money on something that turns out to be only mediocre at best.

    Along with that, does anyone have any sources to buy from in central Europe (online or in-person), specifically Austria/Vienna?

    Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Squished Fly (she/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Just a thought process that led me into thinking too much about who I actually am


    (First time posting here, hi you cuties ^^/)

    For context, I am 18 MtF but don’t have any medication yet because of the local healthcare system. To add to that, while I am in therapy, I’m afraid to talk to my therapist about this because I will need a confirmation from him that says that I can have HRT to actually get HRT. This puts me into this weird place where I very much should talk to my therapist about it but also shouldn’t because it might hinder me from getting hormones (I hate this system). Of course, I don’t want to replace my therapist with you, I just want some of your thoughts and experiences with this.

    Long story short, pretty much everyone I’ve ever heard talk about this has always said that there is a difference between attraction and gender envy. The only issue is, this line doesn’t really exist for me.

    If I think someone is cute, I can never really differentiate between the feeling of “I wish I was this cute” or “I wish they would hug me / I could hug them”. What ma