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For your experience to be a happy one, the experience is not primarily reliant on what is being experienced being something which brings happiness to you, it is the you, which is experiencing, that needs to be of happiness.

So, although the outer world affects the inner being and a better world will improve the inner experience for many and is therefore a just cause, the search for a life of personal happiness is primarily about the situation within you and not the situation around you. - PunkMonk

  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • Well, never heard of this and that just sent me down a bit of a wikipedia rabbit hole lol. It's an even more fitting simile to what is going in with US-Israel and Iran considering that this Varg guy is a far-right lunatic with weird religious beliefs.

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • I think boredom is part of it, before invading Venezuela, Trump was all bark, no bite, sat in charge of a dying empire and looked miserable. Now he can at least say that he is doing something I guess. But he is still in charge of a dying empire and miserable lol.

  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • well, aside from that lol

  • Just had a real slap in the face reminder of how badly my life turned out.

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  • I have been suicidal too, I am so fucking sorry that you're in the position you are in. I can't tell you what is the point because I still don't know for sure myself. Neoliberal government therapy is very poor quality therapy but it at least it is free & still talking to someone who is qualified to help, I am not really.

    To me, life is suffering but there is pleasure and purpose too, and sometimes we can be in a period of our life where we don't see a reason too but the only way you can exist in a position where you have purpose is by keeping on living. There is no purpose to be found in death, only death. I can also recommend, as much as it is super fucking corny to, to play Disco Elysium if you haven't already. The lead writer is, even though he doesn't openly admit, in my opinion, undoubtedly a socialist who has dealt with suicidal thoughts and existential depression, like you and me. It personally helped me find some meaning in this world and appreciate the beauty amongst the, well, shit.

    Below are some existential writings from my own journal that helped me pull through that deep depression and still do. If you want to read them, they might help you, I'm sharing them because if you are going to ask me specifically, 'what is the point?', I may aswell share specifically what helped me find a point to live rather than some vague gesturing. If they don't help, then that doesn't mean give up looking for answers, it just means my answers weren't the right answers for you. Plenty of smarter, more creative minds than my own have written on the uncomfortable topic of, 'why live?'

    Something I can work on is: What can I do today to make tomorrow better for myself and others?

    The more I try to force myself to change. the more I don't change - I need to let myself be me, the good me, and let him bloom, naturally one step at a time.

    I am inconcievably small compared to the universe yet also inconvievably complex & large compared to bacteria. Somehow alive in between two extremes, finitely. I will never quite grasp it and that is ok.

    I do not know what I am or even if I am, but 'I' know that 'my' body and mind will eventually cease. 'I' know that injustice exists, and that it is correct to aim to fix that. So, 'I' operate within the unknown for now, having hope for my own peace and a better world. A path once walked, continually walking on it for now and then, never again (?) - Surviving, changing, clinging, hoping, trying, helping, hurting. Living. Dying.

    Samaritans helpline phone number: 116 123

  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • I really don't think the majority of the working class are THIS gullible, surely, right? Right??

  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • Yeah, this is exactly my point hahaha, they have next to nothing to convince people they were in the right to do this. Of course us leftists know they had no right by default but the general public in the imperial core are not going to be able to support this by this 'but but they were almost going to kind of possibly have nukes in the near future maybe!' argument alone.

  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • That might work on some of the smooth-brain, diehard MAGA cultists but it is not even close enough to convince the general public in the US and internationally.

  • The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

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  • Because of oil, other crucial resources and the mere fact that Iran exists too close to Israel while being anti-imperialist & pro-Palestine is my understanding.

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    ExistentialNightmare @lemmygrad.ml

    The craziest thing about the new war on Iran is they don't even have any clear-cut, manufactured justification for it to give the media. They didn't even bother.

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • Me reading that post lmao:

    What a mess this country's communist orgs are, holy shit

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • Okay, one step at a time, thanks for the recommendation comrade

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • Maybe you're right, I just wouldn't even know where/how to begin. I'm not great at socialising, organising nor motivating myself individually to do such things.

    Really I could do with being trained by someone, which I expected the CPB would at least to some extent do with newer members but they don't, infact I have brought this up to my branch but have heard nothing back about it. Because they're shit.

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • After reading through the comments of this post and looking into this issue a fair bit, it's become quite clear to me that the working class of Britain desperately needs better representation. The existing parties - parties above 1000 members - to varying degrees fail, whether by policy or lack of action, to actually represent and fight for the working class.

    There is a lot of work to be done, new organisations need to be made and the smaller organisations who are on the right track need to grow. Personally, I wouldn't even know where to begin, I need to read more theory that's for sure.

  • Just had a real slap in the face reminder of how badly my life turned out.

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  • I have no friends anymore, my physical reality is very mundane like yours. I am isolated, alone, bored, burnt out and trying my best to overcome depression for good. I would love to work in a job I had passion for and have this nice little social life but our system makes that very hard for anyone who doesn't fit the mold of normalness. On top of that I have some conditions myself that make life more difficult, not as serious as yours but they do affect me in ways I can't really control.

    You do not live a pathetic life, you live a life in which the system has beyond failed you, a life which proves how flawed western capitalism has always been and how much necessity there is for socialism. And above all else you live a life of resistance, it may not be a life of the ideal kind of armed, organised, glorious resistance we dream of but you are resisting in the ways which you can.

    Resist capitalism, fascism, imperialism. Also resist hopelessness, depression, self-hatred.

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • I'm considering it, going to actually look into them thoroughly before I apply (or not) this time. Perhaps learning and communicating in Welsh is the key to revolution as any MI6 agent listening in our plans to allegedly overthrow the bourgeois dictatorship would logically assume we are insane.

    edit:

    Statement from Plaid Gomiwnyddol Cymru / the Communist Party of Wales & The Welsh Underground Network: "The UK Supreme Court’s ruling of April 16th is a disgraceful assault by the British state upon the dignity, humanity, and rights of trans women by denial of legal recognition and protection."

    Holy shit, an actually reasonable take on trans rights??

  • I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

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  • Any suggestions on what I should do?

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    ExistentialNightmare @lemmygrad.ml

    I regret joining the Communist Party of Britain due to them likely being ran by TERF's and generally being useless.

  • "Capitalism isn't bad, it's just late-stage capitalism that sucks"

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  • Varoufakis is overhated in my opinion and as far as I am aware he doesn't argue for such things. I'm no superfan of him but he isn't on the same level of garbage as Zizek and Chomsky.

    Hasan Piker did an interview of sorts with him and Yanis came across more marxist and leftist than I expected. Just because he isn't a Marxist-Leninist doesn't mean he is a liberal.

    Although maybe I just don't know enough about him, feel free to argue otherwise.

  • "Capitalism isn't bad, it's just late-stage capitalism that sucks"

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  • This video lives rent free in my head ngl

    Paraphrasing but Barry's economics basically argues:

    THIS ISN'T CAPITALISM IT IS SOMETHING ADAM SMITH WARNED AGAINST AND WE DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND IT ENOUGH TO GIVE IT A NAME YET. - It's so infuriating someone can see the world in such a delusional and idiotic way and then spread that slop online to minimal criticism.

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    ExistentialNightmare @lemmygrad.ml

    This post's comment section is an absolute goldmine

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    ExistentialNightmare @lemmygrad.ml

    Horseshoe theory is not real and most people who identify with far-right views are a lost cause, however...

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    ExistentialNightmare @lemmygrad.ml

    My brother visited that famous wax museum in Poland not that long ago