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I actually worked with some lib org that does canvassing but work was incredibly limited, and they continued to misgender even though they claimed trans acceptance. I got hired by one temp-to-hire position but they forgot to tell me that I need a driver's license to work with them and had to stop the onboarding in the middle of it... was really pissed.
Annnnnd of course they never called me even though they said they would. I shot a follow-up email. Maybe that's futile, but meh.
I read the title thinking of my ex-friend named Cain.
He's unfortunately a perfect example of the archetypal problematic reactionary gen Z male.
So I disagreed with the title immediately, of course.
Animals as Leaders - A look back at 10 years of 'The Joy of Motion' (19:22)
Seeing this tour live got me absolutely Mind-Spun, a day I'll never forget!
What up homies
I'm hoping to get a job offer today... maybe I'm being too hopeful
I'd call for the Catholic doctrine to have a ban on heterosexuality
Chudtallica be like
Wokeness, imprisoning me
All that I see, absolute gender
I cannot live, I cannot DEI
Pronouns in bio, hate for cishet white males
Snowflakes have taken my slurs
Taken freeze peach, taken my gaming
Taken my guns, taken the West
Cancelled my posts, left my country in hell
Interview went well... I'm hoping for respect and an offer
I had to walk to this place and back in the hot ass sun... god damn, that was brutal, but I'll get used to it. I've done this for jobs in the past. I'm home now and chilling with a fresh beverage.
So when I say "I'm hoping for respect," I mean that this
lady who interviewed me better respect my time and effort to go there, especially since it was a rather short interview. The questions could've easily been handled in a 5 minute phone call, but I guess she wanted to see me in person.She said that I will get an answer by end of the day tomorrow, but seeing as how I've had jobs tell me an estimate for when I get an answer and then totally ghost, I'm not going to be shocked if she doesn't call back. I will try to reach her if she doesn't call me by one hour before the
Why did I misread the title as "I thank god for giving me a pronoun maker"
I immediately said, "The woke have gone too far this time!" of course.
My answer would have to be my audio interface... let's me directly input audio into a DAW. Definitely something essential for me to have. Honorable mention to my portable charger thing that I got during Milton.
Animal exploitation
I second the bleach demons
I actually went down the "classic prog rock enjoyer to djent fanboi" pipeline, and I still listen to a lot of classic prog rock, so definitely not.
::: spoiler Doomery [Fears About Familial Transphobia Too] On top of all of this job hunting bullshit, I feel like my post for rent fundraising is going at a slower pace than usual... sucks. To be fair, I did have to get two overdrafts covered, and if it weren't for that, I'd probably be around $100 in. Usually, a few HBs come in with some really hard clutch towards the end of the month, but I always get this nagging fear where I say, "What if this is the month where I won't be saved?" It's a horrifying outcome to sit on and think about, no matter how familiar I get with that scary feeling, and it happens every month. It's obviously the primary reason why I really just want to fucking get a job already so that I don't have to live with this fear.
I also hate how it makes it so much harder to cope and just vibe. The things I usually enjoy like listening to music, composing, watching video essays, talking to buds, and whatever, they just don't seem like I'm "allowed" to enjoy them at a certain point. I start victim blaming myself, saying, "Am I really doing everything I can in my power to get a job?"
I have resorted to things I definitely did not want to do. I hate working with animal products, yet I still applied for places like KFC and McDonalds. I have seen about shitty part-time gigs and even temporary ones to see if I can have the slightest bit of grace and some income. I have asked DeepSeek to give me "outside the box" recommendations. I really have thought about so much. I look on Google maps to see what businesses are available and if I can email them directly. On top of all of this, I have to ensure that, especially in my shitty state, they're not going to be put off by me being androgynous and having freeform dreadlocks.
I genuinely feel clueless, and I get a headache when I think too long on the question of what could be different.
These worries about making rent, job hunting being ridiculously frustrating to a point near damn complete hopelessness, and the uncertainty of just about everything continues to be depressing. Hopefully, my birth month ends up being at least somewhat joyful. To make matters worse, I have to worry about my "family" violating boundaries and trying to reach me during the day,
I do have some job interviews coming up, but I feel like the job hunt situation puts me in a catch 22 with interviews. I need to be in a good mood, determined, and motivated to do good in a job interview, but I need to actually have hope that a place will hire me to be in a good mood, determined, and motivated in a job interview. And I've exhausted so much effort, energy, and preparation in job interviews only to get the highest level of disrespect imaginable in return that my mind still struggles to remain in that psychological spot of, "It's still worth it to try your best." :::
Let's ask him!
@ButtBidet@hexbear.net, get your ass in here!
Final update: we decided not to talk anymore, not even as friends, and I respect that.
She's genuinely a good person, and even though things didn't work out how I hoped, I'm grateful for the time we shared. It showed me my heart's full capacity to love and proved that the kind of person I'm looking for in a relationship can exist, even if it's not her.
This was different from anything I've felt before. Looking back, my past "love" I had other people was built on potential. I idealized people, loved who I wanted them to be, not who they really were. With her? No illusions. I loved her exactly as she was. That's why I couldn't settle for anything less than something real and lasting. Since that's not mutual, walking away is the right call.
I hope our conversations brought her even a little joy or warmth. For me, the experience was priceless, and if it brightened her world in any way, that makes it even more meaningful.
No regrets. Just gratitude.
Also, still a thug!
In good news, my freeform dreadlocks just keep getting better and better. Nothing will teach you patience like growing freeforms, damn! Birthday's also hella close.
I share a birthday with a very famous abolitionist, go figure. If that hint doesn't help you, also consider the piano man.
Animals as Leaders - Another Year (3:51) - 2014
I should've posted this 111 days ago...
Rejected 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
it's okay
i'm a thug
😢
(her rejection wasn't even an explicit no... it was really just a non-answer, like she totally ignored it and responded by bringing up a totally different topic, made it even worse but once again i'm a thug
i'll get through it
hugs and kisses all appreciated)
I NEED to provide clarity on a few things because of severe disturbances because of a previous post
On this post where I talked about an awful situation I had with my brother, there was a comment siding with my brother suggesting fervent agreement with him and a strong sense on blame on me.
And while I absolutely do understand the point of the comment and was just going to "leave it to the side," especially since the post is a few days ago, I absolutely can't. I can be extremely obsessive when I feel as if I've done something wrong. I can feel even lower self-esteem than I already do in your every day life when I make a mistake, especially one this bad, and while I don't think it's ever appropriate for me to reach out to my brother again and apologize, I can at least learn to live with myself. Unfortunately, I couldn't see myself doing that without making this follow-up.
So, to clarify, the way I responded to him wasn't the best way, and I can acknowledge that. I also want to clarify that my intention of my response wasn't
Update: she got back to me
That made my day so damn much!
Even when times are rough about other things, that really, really hyped me up, and I still have a smile on my face.
I basically just asked her how she is doing, and she said she is doing good but is somewhat busy! This is kind of feeding three birds with one scone because:
- It's definitive confirmation that the silence isn't due to her ignoring or neglecting.
- It shows that she's in a good mood, which I love to hear so much!
- It gives a more solid, definitive explanation of what is likely the case when it occurs in the future.
I got worried, but I also tried to keep a good level of chill. This was really just my mind doing the whole, "Literally assume the worst possible case scenario at all times, even if it isn't likely the case." I'd argue that more signs definitely pointed in the direction of her not ignoring me but I can be a hella negative thinker, especially for really important matters.
I told her that I'm glad she is doing well and th
#notallwhitewomen
cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/4473164
Unfortunately, this problem she is talking about represents a major problem on the left that my intersectional ass is noticing way too damn much.
It really seems like, for many leftists, justice is either:
- supported for the sake of selfishness (people only care about supporting pro-justice causes that they'd personally benefit from, but they'll gladly be oppressive in other contexts)
- taken as a performative gesture to make someone look noble, righteous, inclusive, and "woke" without any genuine care or concern for marginalized people
I feel this is seldom ever addressed because, like I said, it seems like this issue is so common that many leftists aren't even realizing that it's an issue. If you just drown out the voices of intersectional people, why would someone even have to care?
The fact that leftists lacking intersectionality is the norm and not the exception has been one of the scariest things f
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 11/18/2024
EM POC ONLY!!!
This is home for me.
I love all of my comrades on c/em_poc, but I wanna especially give a huge shoutout to @sweet_pecan@hexbear.net for doing a lot to help me keep my composure. I don't know if they quite realize how much I appreciate them!
Each and every single one of you makes me feel less alone through these struggles, though.
I hope all of you are well!
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 11/11/2024
Remember, EM POC only!
This message is to my EM POC comrades: Angel loves all of you.
Especially as of late, I have truly been feeling like this community has worked wonders in keeping me stable when it comes to handling the massive jar of mayo that this site can be sometimes.
How are you all?
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 11/4/2024
Because I recently had to crumple up a cracKKKa who wandered into this community, uhh, let me be clear:
EM POC ONLY
Thank you. With that aside, welcome to this week's featured EM POC thread.
How are all my comrades doing?
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 10/28/2024
Remember, EM POC only!
Vibes are off. That's really all I can say about my energy right now.
How are all of the rest of the EM POC comrades?
kristina wants consideration from em_poc voices for this survey
She is doing a demographics survey, and your input would be greatly appreciated when it comes to making the survey more inclusive.
You can message her matrix ID for more information: @small-k:matrix.org
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 10/21/2024
Remember, EM POC only!
I finally got my internet back. It took them fucking long enough. I guess this means that I'm finally away from all of the outages that Milton gave me.
I'm still overall pissed off about... everything else that made this hurricane suck, but I'll try to do positive vibes right now.
That aside, good day to all of my EM POC comrades!
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 10/14/2024
Remember, EM POC only!
I still don't have power, so I spent a lot of time at this cafe that is open late just to ensure that I have a full battery. I stayed there until they closed.
As utterly fucking frustrating as this is, it seems as if Tuesday/tomorrow is the latest I can expect to have power. So many houses around me already seem to have it.
I might be able to actually sleep with ease again as my room won't be disgustingly hot anymore. I could complain about it for ages, and I could get a lot more vulgar too, especially considering the whole fucked up context of the American government being more invested in putting in billions to fund fascist operations in Isn'trael and UKKKraine instead of providing relief to their own citizens that just endured the wrath of a very rough, cheek-clapping hurricane.
![isntrael](httEM POC WEEKLY THREAD 10/7/2024
Remember, EM POC only!
One year of Palestinian resistance...
I want liberation for all of the marginalized who still remain chained up by their oppressors.
That aside, of course, I'm hoping for some happy EM POC vibes this week!
I'm trying this new approach to my issues called th
EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 9/30/2024
Remember, EM POC only!
Good morning, afternoon, or evening depending on where you are, comrades.
I finally reached my goal for c/mutual_aid. It was scary as hell, but we're here now. Thank you to everyone who gave support.
I'm looking forward to having some more chill EM POC vibes today!