i believe this is the game of life? basically, each square represents whether it's alive or not (white = dead, black = alive), and each frame (image, in this case), each square decides whether it's alive or not depending on the squares around it according to some rules i forgot but should be covered in the link
i'm totally fine providing references, i'm drowning in those. but i haven't been on such good terms with my supervisors. which... i do sort of prefer. power relationship in the workplace and all
(i wasn't on BAD terms with them, just not "i have your phone number" terms)
i feel like this comment is actually rooted in concern that talking about suicidal ideation increases it, and, while i don't have studies to support it, talking about it certainly doesn't increase the actual rate of suicide, and i believe openly talking about it lowers the barrier to people being able to get help when the thoughts actually become dangerous
certainly, at least i've heard from plenty of people who deal with these sort of thoughts, that not being able to express them can isolate and distance them further from their friends and community (a notably more dangerous situation). so, while the increase in dialogue about suicidal ideation makes me sad, i'm at least happy that it's increasingly normal for people not to suffer in silence
but as an aside, gatekeeping suicidal ideation is crazy lmfao
i've never understood this sort of masculinity, but i also have people who need me to be alive to continue living, and i assume that changes the math (transmasc, since i figure people will wonder, and i'm fine with this being the one thing where i'm not a real man lol)
what's uhhh, what's the implication here. because that hand position implies holding down and fucking, but the way the legs are positioned absolutely do not
could do a riding thing if you have a dick and you're being held down by someone with a vagina, i guess, but i feel like that's also a different interpretation of what's happening
which is even more incredibly fucked when you consider the illusory truth effect, or the effect of something seeming more truthful by the mere repeated exposure to it (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illusory_truth_effect)
i've found that therapy is good for practicing social skills, and explaining your feelings to other people. these are generally valuable skills, but they lack in what you're looking for - trying to get yourself to a less reactive state
have you read a book called "the body keeps the score"? it talks a lot about PTSD/CPTSD, the causes, and, most relevantly, the treatments. if you want to stick to therapy, i would suggest EMDR, it seems to have better outcomes for people dealing with trauma. for stuff you can do today, i would practice 4-7-8 breathing and yoga. down the line, i would recommend looking into neurofeedback. it helped me a ton. but i think breathing + yoga are sort of the slow, manual path that neurofeedback takes you down, and are worthwhile in their own respect
good luck in your journey, i hope you find this helpful. one day, may trauma be as easy to treat as any other condition humans can be afflicted with
(real question) is there a non-carb grain? is there a grain that's mostly protein? (a lot of keto stuff has pea protein...) (i'm almost certain there's no FAT based grain 😭)
i believe this is the game of life? basically, each square represents whether it's alive or not (white = dead, black = alive), and each frame (image, in this case), each square decides whether it's alive or not depending on the squares around it according to some rules i forgot but should be covered in the link