Could be Adhd, could be bipolar, could be malnourishment. What you need to do truthfully is touch grass, eat something, and let a doctor make the formal diagnosis.
Unpopular opinion: The gamebryo/creation engine itself isn't that terrible considering almost every item is physics based. I love the engine for something like Fallout. Starfield... There are things they could have done with it to make it better. But Starfield did show that as proof of concept, vehicular traversal is doable.
The issue with Bethesda isn't the janky ass engine. The issue with Bethesda is Emil and his shitty writing.
That explains the massive right wing presence there.