I find it frustrating that if I choose to use Madeleine as my name (it's a family name), every trans girl is going to assume I chose it because of Celeste.
My entire family is some flavour of neurodivergent or another. It sucks, but you aren't alone. Just remember that trying to be a good person is more than most people do.
Ok I think I remember hearing about this subtype of OCD. I've heard that there is a subgroup of OCD sufferers that are constantly paranoid about being something taboo. And repeatedly check themselves to see if they meet the criteria for that taboo group of people. I've heard of other examples, but I know enough about OCD not to mention them to you.
It must really suck to constantly worry that you're transphobic. But I will say that logically speaking, you are worried about being transphobic and transphobes tend not to burden themselves with such thoughts.
During normal cis female puberty, progesterone comes in about 2 years after estrogen. Do with that information what you will. I'm pretty sure that mechanism evolved to make sure there was enough boob to feed a baby by the start of the menstrual cycle, rather than to arrest breast growth. Breasts will generally grow after that point, and progesterone is important for their maturation.
I've met plenty of cis women with hairy arms. Some wax or shave it off, some don't. Just personal preference. If you want rid of it and have the cash a decent IPL machine will have decent results. I have this one.
Edit: It works as long as the hair is darker than the skin, if you have dark skin or light blonde hair it won't do much.
If you genuinely want to shut republicans up about trans issues I'm pretty sure countering with "why are you so fixated on transgender people? Are you a chaser or something?" Would go a long way.
I understand what you are saying, I understand that enanthate takes a while to achieve stable levels so my plan is to give it 2-3 months so I can see if its something that would help. My dysphoria is almost entirely biochemical so my thought is that my symptoms are either actually due to dysphoria in which case I should see some improvement in my mood after a few months or my symptoms are something entirely different in which case I would expect it to make me feel significantly worse after a few months. But I don't want to go ordering multiple vials only to be stuck with them and noone to give them to, because as previously stated, I'm completely friendless at the moment.
As far as experience home-brewing I don't have any yet, just a lot of general lab experience. I've skimmed the instructions on one of the DIY websites and it all seems pretty simple. If I end up actually going through with home-brewing I'll make a step by step video and upload it somewhere. That information will become very important in the next few years. I certainly wouldn't go selling vials unless I was extremely comfortable with the procedure and had third party testing and proper equipment (proper laminar flow fume cabinet, autoclave etc instead of oven extractor fan and instant pot).
Yeah my hair is also thick and kinda coarse like insect hair. And i also have an extremely frizzy Rats nest right in the middle. Takes a lot of upkeep to look like I didn't sleep in a hedge.
I find it frustrating that if I choose to use Madeleine as my name (it's a family name), every trans girl is going to assume I chose it because of Celeste.